I'm not single anymore..

Well, I'm back from Fort Benning and I met a woman through Match.com. I have actually met a hand full of women the past couple of months and I guess I scared some of them away... I think I try too hard.. In the past girls have told me that I'm "too nice.." I think that means that I don't challenge them enough or something like that.. Like I try to make them happy but in doing so I don't make it a challenge for them.. Everyone likes a challenge, right? So I would start dating a girl and then I would want to talk to her all the time. That's how it was in high school anyway. Maybe my tactics haven't changed much since then.. I think I get comfortable with the girl and then I tell her what I'm feeling.. Growing up with so many sisters I think I just got used to verbalizing with I'm thinking. I'm not saying that I would be the best communicator with my sisters but I've always been a pretty open guy. And I thought that girls liked knowing what a guy wanted or what was on his mind.. Well, if he does that then he isn't very mysterious.. Its hard for me to be mysterious because when I get something in my head I just have to open my mouth and verbalize it..

One of my friends (a girl who I would never date because we really don't see eye to eye on a lot of the important issues) told me that I'm too intense and I just have to tone it down a little bit. She actually knows second hand because she introduced me to her sister.. Her sister and I never met but we just chatted on the phone and I couldn't even pull that off... I felt like her sister was willing to talk to me a bunch over the phone but I guess that was just my perception. Well, each girl I've dated seems to be more and more like the woman I always hoped I would find myself with. This girl that I'm dating now is very special to me and I really don't want to mess it up. It seems like I'm always learning to be more patient.. I feel like I'm a patient person but lately I've found that I'm not very good at it.. But I think I'm getting better and being that I don't want to screw up I've learned that I have to be patient and just take things as they come.. I've been praying a bit lately and asking for guidance and I feel like God is telling me to take it easy.. Its hard to take it easy when you feel like you like someone so much, especially when she seems to be such an awesome person.. I still have an active profile on Match.com but so many of the girls don't really compare to the one I'm dating. I just really enjoy spending time with her! And that's something I have not had for a really long time.

The military seems to always complicate my life... I meet this awesome woman and then a couple weeks after I meet her I have to go to Fort Knox, KY for five months of training. Anything can happen in those five months.. I haven't been dating this girl for very long so maybe you could say that I'm still on the "first few weeks of dating" high.. I'm nervous that she is going to meet someone else but at the same time I know I'm a pretty good guy. I hope I'm the type of guy that she's interested and that the distance won't be that big of a problem.. I guess that's where faith comes in. Faith that God has a plan. I have to trust in Him and know that he is in control. Since I haven't been posting much I'm anxious to fast forward a couple of months and see where things are with this girl. I really hope that it goes well but at the same time I know that if I don't end up with this girl then I will have faith that God will bring the right one to me. But as of right now I am really hoping that I've already met her and our journey together is just starting. Only time will tell.