Lonely and confused..

Sometimes I get lonely. I watch TV or surf the internet. Its like I want to have someone to talk to but at the same time I don't want to come across as a lonely person. Sometimes I think lonely people are creepy.. Is it wrong to want to talk to someone? Well, for right now I would settle for just about anyone, but eventually I think I would be content with just one person. Or one person with a couple of good friends.. I was just thinking that I have spend the whole morning not talking to anyone, but I spoke to a friend on the phone for about two minutes, so there goes my streak.

I think I get attached to people too quickly.. Or I open up too quickly. A girl once told me that women like guys who are mysterious, I don't think I am very good at being mysterious. I've tried to be mysterious though... But, for some reason, it doesn't seem to work very well for me. Another guy told me that I should get women to think that they need to talk to me all the time.. But then he spends hours on the phone with his girl friend when he would rather be doing other things. I've seen him on the phone and he looks so bored!! LOL! I told him that he is so good at getting her to think that she has to talk to him that now he can't get her off the phone! I guess my biggest "problem" in "playing the game" is that I don't care to play that game or any game. I just what a wholesome relationship with a woman that I can just chill with and share my life with.

The other day I chatted with a female friend of mine who finds herself in a situation very similar to my own. Its funny how she deals with some of the same stuff that I deal with only she is on the opposite side of the matter. She has to deal with the guys who are playing the game and taking everything that they can get. I feel for her, and at the same time I am hoping that she finds a guy a lot like myself. Someone who will treat her with respect, want to do things with her, protect her, encourage her and serve her. Oh, and trust her and love her. There are times where I want to go find a girl like that and treat her right and there are other times that I just want to stay at home and do nothing. Well, I don't like staying at home, but I don't know what else to do. I'm on Match.com and I see lots of girls on there, but when you already like a girl it is hard to "go shopping" for another girl. Well, that's what it feels like, shopping the classifieds for a woman who has things in common with me.. I am so thankful to have friends who are girls, they are more fun to talk to then guys! I think I like a girl anyway, but its is far safer just to try to be her friend. I think that's my biggest problem today.. Its not that I am bored, its more that I don't understand some stuff. Like, should I make a change in my life, move away from my friends and family, and out of Minnesota? Its chilly outside today.. The Spring and Fall seasons can seem so long.. So warmer temps are sounding good right about now.. And if I were to choose to move, would it be for the wrong reasons? Who's to say if a reason is right or wrong. Would a move like that be "living with no regrets" or would be just be making a big mistake? I think I would rather live with a mistake rather then living with a regret. What did God tell me? Maybe I should ask him since I've spent all this time thinking about it and I haven't gotten anywhere doing it by myself...